I know The Malleable Path is very new. It’s my 7th week writing articles. I’ve shared a few lessons that I’ve learned. I’ve also shared what TMP is all about. But here’s the truth about why I started in the first place.
I was lost in life, depressed… It became so clear to me that my everyday life lacked discipline and purpose. Many of my choices were driven by the wish to escape the misery. This longing kept my nervous system in fight-or-flight mode. It made it hard for my body to make sound decisions. Sure, I always made a move and got some different life experiences. However, I still always ended up in a situation where I wanted something different. This time, God has given me the gift of isolation and freedom. The time to heal so that my next move can be made from love, authenticity, and abundance.
Isolation is not for the weak. If you use the time properly, you can come out of it a completely different person. So that’s what I decided to do.
I’m 29 years old and I do not have everything figured out yet, trust me. I’ve struggled with depression a lot of my life with the worst times being ages 16 and 27. Over the last couple of years, there have been many times I came home from work and I would ask God why I am still in this current situation. I know I deserve better, I know I’m worth more and I even dedicated 8 months of consistent work trying my best to get out of it – and yet nothing. I am not just a believer in this philosophy, but I know it to be true; “everything happens for a reason”, and “all in divine timing” meaning God has a plan for me that I cannot see. Looking back, the more I learn about myself and what I want out of life, it’s so clear why my plans didn’t work. They were all a move made from misery or scarcity, and I would have ended up in different situation still miserable. I can feel that God wants a different way for me, and the universe is making sure it aligns, even if it takes longer than I thought.
One day getting ready for work it hit me so hard. How many other people would be feeling the same way that I am. Wanting change and purpose in their life. I am blessed with time, freedom, isolation, and a strong connection to God to navigate this chapter of my life. I thought that if I get through these dark times than I can share what I’ve learned. I want to help people because I know how horrible it can feel. Life is short, and I am not going to live forever, so I want to create something meaningful. I want to inspire others to live a good life. So, I started writing and there was born, The Malleable Path. I really have the darkest, loneliest chapter of my life to thank for it. Writing these articles brings me a lot of joy and mental clarity. I know this is new but I pray these articles can be seen by the people who need them most. I look forward to continuing this journey together.
With love,
Jessie
The Malleable Path.